MEANING BEYOND A MEANINGLESS WORLD

And I set my mind to seek and explore by wisdom concerning all that has been done under heaven. It is a grievous task which God has given to the sons of men to be afflicted with. I have seen all the works which have been done under the sun, and behold, all is vanity and striving after wind. Ecclesiastes 1:13-14 NASB 

Solomon tells us there is nothing new or meaningful under the sun. Our challenge, when searching for meaning, is to look above the sun, outside this box we call earth.

 MEANING BEYOND A MEANINGLESS WORLD

I’ve asked the question a thousand times, “Why am I alive?” The answer I’m searching for goes far beyond discovering my purpose, or gifts or talents. Those things are important compasses in finding life’s direction, but they don’t satisfy my curiosity for knowing why I exist.  

I’m pretty open about my life’s struggle with self-hatred and worthlessness. For many years I believed the lie that I was, basically, garbage in human form. As a result, I searched the corners of the earth for anything to give my life meaning. In the end, all I had was a long list of unfixable choices, unyielding habits, frail character, and the irreconcilable belief that my life had no meaning.  I had set my mind to seek and explore everything available to me under heaven, and it just wasn’t enough. In fact, I discovered that the more I learned about the world, the more I hurt.  

Ecclesiastes chapter 1 is pretty disparaging about life on earth, describing it as a boring, repetitive, clockwork existence, destined to be forgotten. To me, it’s more like a snapshot of life…without God in it. It’s about the futility of searching for meaning in all the wrong places. Meaning doesn’t exist under the sun or within the boundaries of earth. Our true meaning exists in the heart of God.

I was 37 when God showed me my meaning and worth, and He began healing my heart, and my life, from the catastrophe I had made it. The meaning of a life isn’t something that can be held in your hand or touched, or taken in with any of the senses. It’s a belief that transcends anything we could ever comprehend this side of eternity.  God knew that my meaning wasn’t something He could just sit me down and explain to make me understand, it was something that had to be experienced. It was a meaning not meant to be written or told, but lived.

If you are breathing, you have meaning. You are important. You matter. Search outside the mundane routines of this world, look above the sun, and He will show you.

 1. In what ways have you sought meaning in this world? Who or what have you turned to, hoping to find meaning?

2. How does Solomon’s description of everyday life resonate with you? Does it sound familiar? Can you relate?

3. Ephesians 1:3-14 defines your personal significance. It lists what God has done to you and for you. He has blessed you with every spiritual blessing. He has chosen you. He has declared you holy and blameless. He has adopted you. He has redeemed you. He has forgiven you. He has made the mystery of His will known to you. He has sealed you with the Holy Spirit. Ponder these truths about you, memorize them, and write them on your heart.

SELFLESS SURRENDER

“While they were ministering to the Lord and fasting, the Holy Spirit said, "Set apart for Me Barnabas and Saul for the work to which I have called them.” Then, when they had fasted and prayed and laid their hands on them, they sent them away. Acts 13:2-3 

I’ll admit it. I’m selfish. I like my possessions. I want to be comfortable. I find security in my friendships. I don’t like change.  I seek stability in this life that isn’t promised nor guaranteed, but yet, I want it, crave it. And time and time again, I learn the hard way that there is only one thing that is rock-solid reliable, ALL the time. That is my God.

When I read these verses in Acts, as the Holy Spirit sets apart Barnabas and Saul, (later to become Paul) and calls them to a very special work, I ask myself, “Where are the verses about the people of Antioch going home to pout over losing their dear friends? Didn’t they argue with God? Question their call? Or plead Him not to take them from their congregation?”

As I ponder the commitment and intensity of these two men, I can only fathom the massive influence they must have had on the church at Antioch. Saul had experienced the transforming power of God, and was on fire! I imagine there was some reluctance brewing somewhere about losing them, as well as some pouting, arguing, questioning, and pleading. I mean, I’m guilty of those things when faced with uncomfortable changes, so why wouldn’t they?

Then I see their response, and am humbled. There was no tantrum, or even hesitation, only selfless surrender to the direction of the Holy Spirit. They fasted, prayed, laid their hands on them, and sent them out. They responded at once with integrity to this major change in their lives.

If I’m truly serious about making God number one in my life, I must be willing to give up my possessions, lifestyle, or even relationships to obey Him. I also want to support those I care about even if it means personal sacrifice. The selfless surrender of the people at Antioch allowed Paul to begin the journey that would lead him to become the greatest missionary of the early church. I never want to stand in the way of something like that. I will surrender, even when it hurts.

1.)  Think about the important people in your life, and the diverse way God has gifted each one of them. Have you ever been tempted to discourage them from obeying God because it would make your life uncomfortable?  Did you give in to that temptation?

2.)   God has a different plan and purpose for each of us. Do you find it difficult to support those with a calling radically different than your own? If so, how can you become more intentional in encouraging them, despite your difficulty?

3.)   Do you earnestly seek the guidance of the Holy Spirit regarding the lives of your friends, as the people of Antioch did for Barnabas and Saul?

4.)  How can you actively support the various ministries of your friends and family today? 

My Friends

This is a repost of an old Facebook note. Thinking about it tonight, it still captures my heart, and worth repeating.

My Friends

by Sarah Leslie on Tuesday, February 2, 2010 at 11:29pm

Okay, so I’m thinking tonight about some deep stuff. Mainly about what kind of difference I have made and will continue to make. I wasted years preoccupied with what others thought of me, and I am so glad I am over that. How painfully I have felt the judgments of others who believe they are better, stronger, richer, more important. I don’t need their stamp of approval upon my life to know I make a difference.

They aren’t the ones that really matter anyway. It’s those who know that life is hard, sometimes even devastating, that I want to have in my life. They are the ones who have the ability to truly love because they have lost, to live because part of them has died, and to care because they have been neglected. I love you just as you are, because I have first been rejected. Judged. Abandoned. Ashamed.

I am no Will Rogers. I do not make friends easily, nor quickly. In fact, I am probably a pretty difficult person to get to know, a mysterious enigma that talks in riddles, tells lame jokes, and hides from those who love me. But if you are my friend, you can be certain of this, I will remain fiercely loyal to you, a trustworthy confidant of your deepest dreams, a steadfast cheerleader in all your endeavors. I accept you as you are, no strings, no expectations, no judgment.

Some of you have known me for ages, others mere months, but always remember this, if you get lost, I will look for you; if you fall into the gutter, I will bring you home; if you are stuck in the muddy mire, I will pull you out; if you are locked behind bars, I will visit and write; if you become ill, I will sit at your bedside. All this is to say, I will not turn my back on you, I am not going anywhere. You, my friends, have made me who I am, and part of you will live forever in me, through every breath I breathe.

I have petty little to offer you in return for your friendship, but I offer what I am, such as I am. If I have tagged you, know that you have made a difference in my life. I cherish you. And always remember, I am here.

Balaam: Prophet for hire

"God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should repent; Has He said, and will He not do it? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?" (Numbers 23:19)

At the core of God’s character is Truth. He is the very essence of Truth. As Christ followers, we yearn to develop the character of Christ. But are we willing to do what it takes? Are we genuinely devoted in all areas of life to developing the character of Christ?

Numbers 23 contains two of the four prophecies God delivered through the mouth of Balaam. Although God used Balaam to prophesy, he was not a prophet, he was a soothsayer, a diviner, a multiculturalist who was devoted to every god, every religion, tolerant of all. He studied details of local religions, and was willing to work for any god, for any reason. He was pricey, internationally known, and very skillful at cursing people.

Balak, the Moabite King, feared destruction at the hand of the encamping Israelites and spared no expense to crush them with best curser in the known world. He and his people were “sick with dread” they were so afraid. The Hebrew translation tells us they were so terrified they were throwing up. Their fear was visceral; it made their guts wrench.

This type of fear takes on a life of its own, leading to many desperate choices and reckless actions. If Balak hadn’t panicked, and simply communicated with Moses, he would have discovered there was nothing to fear, for God had told Israel to pass by the Moabites without harming them. Instead he relied on magic and sorcery as national weapons, and hired Balaam.

Balaam desired a relationship with God, to be able to bless and curse, to be a real prophet—but he never wanted to obey. In fact, he constantly and consistently refused to do what God told him. In the end, God took over his mouth, and he was helpless to prevent it. Balaam knew enough truth to outwardly appear sincere and faithful, but was not at all willing to yield his life to God.

I have walked in both sets of shoes. I have been so caught up in fear and panic, making tragic choices because I didn’t seek God. And I’ve known what the truth was and not lived by it. But when I signed away the right to myself, and yielded to Christ, those shoes fell from my feet. It’s possible to live worry-free, never fearing God’s next move, knowing He is managing my life according to His character, not mine.

Ego-driven self-promotion earns permanent demotion

God despises a self-important, self-promoting attitude. What begins as pride leads to envy of others, rebellion against leaders, quarrelling among families, and evil conspiracy. Instead, it is wise to humble ourselves, on our face before God in all situations, seeking his plan, and becoming willing to follow it.

"As he finished speaking all these words, the ground that was under them split open; and the earth opened its mouth and swallowed them up, and their households, and all the men who belonged to Korah with their possessions. So they and all that belonged to them went down alive to Sheol; and the earth closed over them, and they perished from the midst of the assembly." (Numbers 16:31-33)

Numbers 16 is an old-testament, 21^st century, action-thriller, containing conspiracy, violent death, and natural disaster. This catastrophic chain of events was induced by the ego of a Levite leader named Korah. Korah grew dissatisfied with his position of serving the Lord in the Tabernacle, and began to envy the leadership positions of Moses and Aaron.

To satisfy his growing ego, Korah, along with fellow leaders Dathan and Abiram, conspired to challenge the leadership team God had put in place. 250 community leaders were also recruited to join the rebellion.

Assembling together before Moses and Aaron, Korah’s stinging words in verse three reveal the depth of his arrogance, “ ‘You have gone far enough, for all the congregation are holy, every one of them, and the LORD is in their midst; so why do you exalt yourselves above the assembly of the LORD?’”

He thought he was rebuking Moses, but he was actually despising God. He bought the lie that he deserved a different position than God gave him.  How did God respond to Korah’s rebellion? He opened a sinkhole beneath his feet, sending him, along with his co-conspirators, their families and possessions, “down alive into the grave.” Immediately afterward, the 250 leaders who had joined the revolt perished in a blaze of heavenly fire.

Korah thought of himself as holy, but God considered him wicked. Korah wanted to make the rules and give himself a promotion. He learned (too late) that God makes the rules, and demotes unrepentant leaders.
Throughout this chapter we see Moses fall on his face in humility before God, seeking vindication, validation and wisdom. Because of Moses’ intercession, God extended grace. God allowed 24 hours for Korah and his group to repent. That’s grace. He gave the followers a warning and the choice to separate themselves from the conspirators. That’s grace. We also discover later in Numbers that God spared a strand of descendants of Korah, allowing them to continue serving Him in the Tabernacle. That’s extreme grace.

Moses humbly sought God in every circumstance listed here, and God honored his humility by extending grace.
God despises a self-important, self-promoting attitude. What begins as pride leads to envy of others, rebellion against leaders, quarrelling among families, and evil conspiracy. Instead, it is wise to humble ourselves, on our face before God in all situations, seeking his plan, and becoming willing to follow it.

You are Never Forgotten

Everyone encounters seasons where we feel forgotten by others. During these moments, what matters is focusing on the promise that God is in control of our circumstances, and knowing and believing that He will place us on the hearts and minds of others according to his timing.

Read Genesis chapter 40. Even while imprisoned, the Lord showed favor to Joseph, and he was placed in charge of the other captives. And we see in this passage that he was attentive and compassionate toward those cared for, which included King Pharaoh’s own cup-bearer and baker. He noticed their sadness one day and inquired why. Each of them had a separate dream in the night that left them dejected and confused as they struggled to discern the meaning. After first giving credit to God, Joseph told each man the interpretations of their dreams. The baker’s dream foretold of his death, while the cup-bearer’s dream foretold of his release from prison and restoration to office. Joseph asked but one thing of the cup-bearer, that he would remember him when he was once again working in the presence of the King, and help free him.

In three days, both dreams came to pass exactly as Joseph foretold. But the cup-bearer made no mention of Joseph to the King, in fact, he forgot him altogether. I can only imagine how Joseph’s heart lost hope a little more each day, as he slowly came to the conclusion that he had been forgotten. He had served the cup-bearer with compassion, even gave of his spiritual gift to interpret dreams, yet was forgotten.

By this time in Joseph’s life, he had come to know that the only one worthy of trust was God himself. People, sometimes even your own family, will forsake you. It is the result of fallen human beings living in a fallen world. But because of the transcendent nature of God, we still have the possibility of immense hope, even when others fail us. In fact, our hope need not falter at all when our life seems to go up in smoke. When we encounter strife, pain, or even tragic disaster that turns our world upside down, we will feel sadness, grief, and confusion, but if it goes beyond, toward hopelessness and desolation, that’s a sign our hope and trust was placed in the person, and not the God, behind our circumstances. God remembers you, always.

The Power of Respect by Deborah Norville, Book Review

The Power of Respect is a common sense approach on the impact of respect in the world. Norville relates her topic to the reader in point blank, everyday language, and applies it to every area of life: home, relationships, school, business, leadership, and self.

I found this book to be a quick read, yet it made an impact. It took me back to the values I was raised upon, to treat others as I would want to be treated. But more than that, it made me realize that there is an entire segment of the population that wasn't raised with those values, and that this book could be a real growth experience for them.

I really enjoyed the book layout, which includes quotes, lists and "respect reminders" in each chapter. My favorite chapter is the last of the seven: It's on the Inside, The Power of Self-Respect. I know firsthand the importance of respecting yourself first, only because I lived many years not doing so. The more we learn about who we really are, and learn to accept ourselves, the less others' perceptions of us matter.

Respect can be cultivated, it can be learned, and it can change your life.